Today I read:
- Genesis 17
- Psalm 20-21
- James 4
- Matthew 15
My meditation was: What do I need to change in order to realign my heart with this truth?
Abram and Sarai had a plan to make God’s promise happen. He had another, better plan. But his plan involved waiting on his timing, which was—quite literally, in human terms—impossible (Genesis 16-17). Knowing the end of the story, it is easy from my vantage point to fault Abram and Sarai for their lack of faith, their lack of trust in God and his way. In fact, without the help of the Spirit, I believe it is impossible not to sit in judgment over others.
But I mustn’t do that, because that practice leads only to war and death. My job is to follow where the Lord leads me, to obey as he directs. It is not my job to police the obedience of others (James 4). If I see something that doesn’t seem right in another person, the only good thing I can do with that observation is approach it from a position of grace, being fully aware of my own shortcomings and similar faults. There is a way that seems right to me, but only God’s way leads to life, healing, and wholeness.
When a problem presents itself, I leap to a solution—usually a solution that involves me doing something:
A few folks need fed? No problem! I can cover that from pocket money. A few dozen folks need fed? I’m pretty sure I can cover on my credit card. A few hundred? Well, let me ring up my friends from church and see what we can do. What? What’s that you say? A few thousand?!? (Matthew 15)
Only when presented with an insurmountable obstacle do I realize that I turn to the Lord for help too late and too infrequently. I am proud in the gifts he has given me: I am surrounded by a great many resources, and I turn to them to comfort and solve and save. But they are all from his hand; they possess no power in themselves. Power and provision are found in him alone. Only he can take the little he blesses us with (our seven loaves and few fish) and turn it into an abundance of blessing for the many.
Lord, teach me humility so that I will turn to you for provision in the small things—in all things—and not just in those things where I am clearly out of my depth. If I would see you bless others through me, I must entrust my meagerness to your greatness. Break my pride, for nothing I have is mine except it first came from you. I have nothing in which to boast or place my trust except your enormous goodness and your endless supply. May I ever trust in you alone!